I just want to send some love out there today to all of you. I know we may be biased, but we're convinced we have THE MOST compassionate and kind community ever.
Today is a bit of a sensitive subject. And it has been brought up due to some very loving readers who I am certain have my best interest in mind.
Since I started the blog, there have been some readers writing in comments or emails regarding my weight and have wondered if I have an eating disorder or if I'm aware that weight can affect fertility.
This is an awkward thing to have to say, but I just wanted to let everyone know that I do not have an eating disorder and I am certainly not trying to stay thin. I could have just ignored the inquiries, but I figured I would share this here in case others have wondered.
Dear readers, I do not eat gluten or dairy. I have Hashimotos and endometriosis, autoimmune disorders that are agitated by inflammatory foods and dairy and gluten are the worst inflammatory foods out there. It turns out that my skin (acne), my brain, my gut, my energy, my hormones/pms, my moods, and my once bloated tummy are sooo much happier without dairy and gluten. And so, I have chosen to not eat these foods out of respect for my health and my body and also my future health (currently I actually don't have any symptoms of Hashimotos or endometriosis that I can feel and I'm hoping to prevent the agitation of these diseases, if I can). I certainly know that being thin can affect a woman's cycle or fertility in some cases. But I've had 10 years of experimenting with different foods, different weights, etc. My infertility doctor also felt strongly that my particular struggles to get pregnant were not linked to my weight, but other diagnosed issues. At this point, it's liberating to not have to worry about being too thin but to just focus on my overall health. Health is related to every drop that I write here on the blog. I consider it the foundation to transforming your life.
So - to all of those who are concerned for me, know that I feel healthy and well and do my best to take care of my body each day. For me, it's crucial to my wellness, moods, energy, any ounce of vibrance that I may have, and even the ability to write this blog. And yes, I eat as many whole foods and healthy fats that I can get my hands on. And I eat tons of yummy food that Danny cooks and foods that we eat at our favorite ethnic restaurants all over Brooklyn. Being thin does come with it's own strangeness due to peoples' questions, concerns, worries, assumptions, judgements, disbelief in what I say, airs of superiority or authority, or even comments of disgust. Having those energies come my way certainly is one of those "things" that I have to face and deal with. It's not exactly fun. And every once in awhile I'll wonder if I really do just look awful to people's eyes. But, I know that people are doing their best to show concern or love. And I remind myself that we all have such different and *beautiful* body types. And I want to shout to the rooftops that ALL of you women are beautiful. And you all have so much to offer. And you can all look good, be full of light, be comfortable in your own skin, own your outfits and style, dance crazy, hold your head high, and make everybody stare at your radiance.
Much love to all of you,
P.S. During and after my divorce, my body dropped a lot of weight - likely due to just the stress of the massive life change and also a loss in appetite. I had very, very dear friends who brought me meals during that time and to this day I'm so grateful for them and will never forget those acts of love and care. There is nothing better than having a nourishing meal in your tummy during a difficult time.
If there is anyone out there who has struggled with an eating disorder, is there ANYTHING that loving or concerned friends did or said that helped you during that time? Would you have any recommendations for people who would like to help a friend and don't know how? We love you. Anonymous comments welcome.