(Note from Mara: This post was supposed to go live earlier today – – but it didn’t. Oops! I guess I made a mistake. It was supposed to post before Danny’s response. Ah well.)
Feeling super lovey today as I prepared this post. I just melt to pieces every time I read these letters from the first few weeks that Danny and I were in touch. (If you’re new to our letters – you can follow them on the sidebar link called “Love Story“). After our divorces, Danny and I were set up by a friend via email. Danny was in Boston and I was in Brooklyn. After one day of emailing, we felt we had found our spouses. 🙂 We met 3 weeks later on a street corner in NYC and it was the best day of our lives. This photo was me practicing what I was going to wear when I met him. 🙂 And this letter was days after our first meeting…
I am doing that routine of disbelief. Shaking my head. sighing. Feeling so in love that my body aches. How is it that I have met you???? Every single moment feels like a miracle. Without any doubt, this is the work of God. I am completely beside myself thinking that I could love a man as much as I love you…and that you could be EVERYTHING good I could ever, ever dream up. AND, on top of that, I am completely attracted to you!!! (too much!! Yikes!!!) Anyway, you were a miracle to me when we first emailed, and a miracle to me when we met, and the miracle is just getting more and more miraculous as time goes on as I STILL get to have you in my life. I was trying to prepare myself so much for the slim chance that after meeting you, that you might not have been interested further. And even then, I would have been SOOO grateful for every moment that I got to have you in my life. But to have you in my life still? My soul has never been so deeply happy, so full of love and gratitude. My heart is just pounding right now and it’s hard to find the very best words to write.
Honey, I hope you know, for the record, that I have NEVER loved a man the way I love you. Ever. I know I have quite a history with being married before and all. And I know for many guys it’s hard to think about and hard to accept. I hope you won’t find yourself ever comparing yourself in any way. Because there just isn’t any comparison. No question. I just look at you and…you just feel like HOME to me. I feel like I am way, WAY more on the same page with you than my former husband, and of course any other guy that I have dated. I just want you to know that you are THE MAN to me. Wow. I love you so much.
And yes, I am SOOO glad that you feel you can be completely open with me. I LOVE THAT ABOUT US. It’s so fun, isn’t it? I just melt completely by all your wonderful emails. And I couldn’t be more grateful for all the many expressions of love that you send my way. ohhhhhhh…….it’s good stuff…… I love you.
So, marriage. I am with you. I think being with another partner will be amazing. And even more amazing than before, because I am even more aware of a better way to live. I just know so much more now!! I am capable of so much more love- the real kind. I really can’t wait to put it all in action, again- at home, with a spouse. And with children! And yes, I think you and I do have such an advantage. I’d say that many couples start out quarreling over little things and they sometimes carry those habits throughout their entire marriage. I see it all the time in couples, even older couples that you would think would know better. Anyway, I think it’s such a sad way to live.
And, you know…I think some people take their marriage and partner for granted. But for me, especially this time around, that just wouldn’t even be possible for me to do. I will just cherish every breathing moment with my husband. Well, I did before, too. Just cause I am that way. But THIS time. HOLY MOLY. I will be SOOOO grateful for my husband and all that he is. I hope he’ll be ok with a ridiculously thankful wife. 🙂
Sweetheart, I really want to see you. I am so anxious. But isn’t it wonderful to feel that longing for someone? I love it. And I couldn’t be happier to feel that!!
Well, I better get some tidying done. And I have a bunch of Harvey stuff to do this afternoon. I’ll be thinking of you non-stop. I hope you have a great time with your friend.
Danny, I am completely yours. No exaggeration. I love you so very much. THANK YOU, darling, for being the amazing man that you are. Oh, how I love you.
P.S. Since these get kind of long, I’ll post Danny’s beautiful response later today!