I can't tell you how grateful we are for all of your notes. They have been so meaningful to us these last few days as we've been healing. We have felt your love and care - every drop of it. I said to Danny, "How do they do it!?" You all have such a way with words. This community is amazing.
We've been feeling loved, loving each other, staying busy, talking to family, and also trying to take it easy. Our dear friends were so sweet and at 10 pm or later on the night we got the news, we got a buzz at our apt. They just came to be with us and give us a hug. It meant so much. Somehow telling our friends the news was really hard. They have just been so, so good to us.
Danny got to work from home yesterday which was so wonderful. We went for a walk, worked from home, and later shared one of our favorite meals - Pho Noodle Soup from Hanco's. Soup honestly is such good soul food. We are doing well and just feeling particularly full of love and gratitude for all that we do have. And we are keenly aware that so many beautiful experiences lie ahead. In a way, it feels like such an adventure to not really know what will happen next.
I thought I'd share with you a few more pictures...
These were my last morning injections. If I had been pregnant, they would have continued for months. Danny keeps kissing my tummy now that we're done. He was so, so amazing at giving me the shots, but he's also so glad he doesn't have to do that to me anymore. :)
Here I am getting ready to head out to Long Island for the pregnancy test. At this point I just wanted it over with. I was feeling butterflies for the first time and was thankful that Michael Jackson's "Keep on with the force..." came on the radio. Danny told me to drive safe with our two embryos. :) I tried to focus on gratitude as I drove. It always helps me to feel calm.
I made it to Exit 45 on the LIE. It's quite a drive to my doctor's office! I might as well be going to the Hamptons. This was just after my pregnancy blood test. Yes, the results were still unknown. But actually my gut (for over a week) said I wasn't pregnant. I would have been shocked if the answer had been otherwise. I just didn't feel any symptoms or feel that instinct or anything. I know it was so, so early to tell anything for sure. But earlier on after the transfer, it felt like something was happening and that I might be pregnant...and then that feeling went away for the rest of the time.
I came home to these...flowers and dairy free chocolate from my dear friend, Mary. So, so sweet...
I kept my phone charged. It was so crazy to have the next many, many chapters of my life come down to one phonecall. Such a strange feeling.
We had to wait about 7 hours for the results. I did actually forget about "the wait" a bit during that time. I am hosting a Natural Beauty Night here in Brooklyn next week (invite will be posted shortly!) and so I've actually had lots going on to keep me busy.
There was also some crazy thunder and one of those SUDDEN, FLASH rainstorms! It was the kind where you just stand by the window in awe and then call your husband to see if it's raining where he is, too.
My dear husband got home safely and made it in time for the phonecall. I'm glad we were together to receive the news. And I'm glad I got to bury my face in his neck afterwards while we hugged and kissed. I could not be more grateful for this companion by my side. This was soon after we received the news.
Things are now carrying on. Lots going on for us this week. I'm heading tonight to an Alt Summit dinner at Sunday Suppers in Williamsburg. So excited to go there as I've heard some amazing things. It's my dream to host a dinner & lecture there one night.
Then tomorrow, I'll be at the Alt Summit NYC conference all day at the Martha Stewart offices. It will be a long day, but I'm excited to see old and new faces - and so, so happy that Danny will get to join me for part of the day. ALSO, I'll be joining THE Darcy Miller of Martha Stewart Weddings on her Radio Show at 1:00 pm. Yes, I know. Crazy. She'll be talking to (3) bloggers at Alt and I'm one of them, along with Jenny Komenda (Little Green Notebook) and Vane Broussard (Brooklyn Bride). If you'd like to hear, tune in to Sirius XM Stars Channel 106 tomorrow (Thursday) at 1:00 pm ET. I can't believe I'm telling you all this. haha. You can even call in with questions (!) 866-675-6675. We'll be talking about blogging. Wish me luck!
Lots of love to all of you,
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