|Here I am in Dr. Braverman’s office….he’s the best infertility doctor I’ve ever been to.|
But along the way, I learned to turn things around completely and free myself from the pain. It was simply a choice I could make – a choice to start on a different path. And making that choice has led to SO many good things, including a wonderful experience so far with our IVF. After a few weeks of medications, we just had our egg retrieval yesterday!! And so far, this entire experience – from start to finish – has been nothing short of beautiful, calm, exciting, and yes – romantic! 🙂
I’ve been trying to think of how this has happened. And I think the absence of fear, blame, or anxiety about the outcome has had a huge affect.
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We have immense gratitude for each other and our desire to be parents together (that is the best part of this! I could never take for granted a loving husband who wants to have kids with me. I experienced the opposite in my first marriage and well, let’s just say having a true companion by my side is the most beautiful thing ever :).
Danny has been so sweet these last few weeks. Here he is making me one of my favorite meals ever the night before the retrieval. Zucchini Ribbon Pasta 🙂 🙂 🙂
|Our last shot had to be administered at 3:00 am on the dot. Our nurse drew a bull’s eye for Danny. And now you’ve seen my bed head. 🙂|
Also, we really, REALLY love our doctor, Dr. Braverman. He’s one of the few Reproductive Immunologists in the country and we’re so glad we found him. He is the best infertility doctor I’ve been to (and I’ve been to many!) We probably would have done IVF much sooner, but just never felt confident in the care we were getting until now. He’s the only one that took “unexplained infertility” seriously and did all the tests he could to discover what was wrong BEFORE scheduling an IVF. He even calls us regularly for updates and his nurses and embryologist are really, really good. Oh, and for my autoimmune issues, he even recommends a gluten free diet, fish oils, antioxidants, Vitamin C, CoQ10, and green tea supplements. (I actually already knew this stuff, but to hear it from my infertility doctor…that was a first for me!)
(Also, in case anyone wants to know, the infertility injections for the egg retrieval are shockingly painless and easy. I barely could feel a thing! The last one was so long, though, that it actually made Danny cuss when he saw it. But I am telling you, I really, really could not feel it! I kind of laughed each time and said, “What?! You’re done?”)
And, we’re grateful for a car! I’ve had to drive to and from Long Island every few days for appointments, and holy moly, I feel spoiled to be able to drive there. And look at these views! Seeing the city from the BQE always takes my breath away – sometimes I still can’t believe I live here.
And here’s Danny carrying my bag on our way to church. We headed to do the retrieval just after that. For anyone interested, the retrieval was EASY!! I was all geared up to face something horrific, but it was painless, took about 10-15 minutes, and was seriously easier than going to the dentist or getting a routine blood test. I feel really lucky that it went so well. I know other people have difficult experiences and those are generally the ones you hear about. So if I may just throw out a positive experience…well, here it is.
The sedation was short lasting and I felt really normal immediately afterwards. Here we are leaving the doctor’s office. I had not been able to eat or drink before the procedure, so we headed to Chipotle afterwards (one of our favorite places for a hearty – and gluten free – meal.)
P.S. Today we found out the results of the retrieval and so far, all of the eggs they retrieved have fertilized! So excited about that!! We actually have some Danny + Mara embryos on 23rd St. I really can’t believe it. We are rooting for them to develop well over the next couple of days. ALSO, they found a couple of signs of endometriosis, which was suspected by Dr. Braverman. Does anyone have that? The next step for me is now a laproscopic surgery. I’ll also be following all of these natural suggestions found here, including acupuncture. (any tips or suggestions welcome!) And until my body heals from the surgery, any healthy embryos that we have will be frozen in the meantime.
P.P.S. To anyone who IS in pain – my heart goes out to you immensely. I have all the hope in the world that one day you, too, can be grateful for your pain. I do not think it’s a bad thing to have pain because it can be the birth place of the greatest transformation of your life. I know that it was for me and I know that it has been for countless others. Sometimes the timing for a transformation has to be right. Or perhaps we have to just be open to the idea of change and desire it enough. Or perhaps we just need to be aware that a transformation is available to us, if we want it. But once we’re aware and we desire it enough, the miracles can begin. In the meantime, have patience and hope. Out of all the people whom I write for, it is you that makes me want to write the most.
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