For now, the moment has come.
All we can do is wait two weeks.
And if I don't conceive, then we will move forward with IVF. At least that's what my fingers just typed. I'm not excited about it. But it's probably time. We'll see how I feel in two weeks.
This has been an extraordinary 8-year journey.
I wouldn't trade it for anything. I've learned the greatest lessons of my life because of it.
Many have asked what I've tried. Here ya'll go - - the good, bad, and the stuff I can't believe I'm including on this list. :)
-Charting. Thermometers in my mouth. (Was my mouth too dry/too cold?) And in other places. (Too warm now? haha.) Sheesh. I don't know if that ever worked out quite right. I always had a shift, but overall my temps were always lower than low. I have yet to find a doctor who seemed to care.
-Books, books, books.
-Chinese teas - from a Chinese pharmacy in Chinatown (hand delivered in vacuum pacs to my office in midtown :)
-Bye-Bye to Gluten and Dairy. (Hello to flat stomach, clear skin and more energy.)
-Acupuncture - by a lovely woman in Brooklyn...with the tiniest hands and the coziest office in a garden apartment of a brownstone. At 911 Union St. Around the corner from the studio I lived in on 9-11. I will never forget that address. Nor the healing experience it was to experience acupuncture. (Even as my first marriage seemed quite uncertain at the time.) I went forward with a wing and prayer that things would work out. (They did :)
-Spiritual Healing - best thing I've ever done in my life. I met one of the wisest women I've known, my second acupuncturist and more importantly, a spiritual healer who changed my life. The momentum from that experience has not stopped.
-Organic vegetables - by the box - delivered to my door. (Though I'm liking the idea of local CSAs more. I need to get on that.)
-Meditation. You guys, this CD for fertility is AMAZING. I love it so much and still listen to it often. Many friends say they love it, too. I think it was sooo healing.
-8 years of prenatal vitamins and loads of fish oil.
-Fancy lubes. :) Expensive ones. Sheesh.
-BodyTalk. I can't recommend this woman enough. She's in Manhattan and one of the most lovely people you'd ever meet. I loooved my appointments with her.
-OV sticks galore. And pregnancy sticks - until I gave up on both of them completely. Even the 24 cent ones you can get from Amazon. Cause I just stopped needing to know. (Though I still wish I had known about those cheap ones back when anxiety was high and I was shelling out good money for those things.)
-Homeopathic drops from an infertility homeopathic guru in Orem, UT. And those cute little pellets in blue vials from my wonderful PCP in Park Slope who also practices homeopathy.
-Clomid + rounds of IUIs.
-And, a psychic. Yes, a psychic. Someone highly recommended it and knew a good one. Well, I did it. Why not. :) [can you tell there are few things I wouldn't try?] I'll let you know if what she told me happens. :)
P.S. You guys, the comments from yesterday just touched me so much. They were the sweetest ever. Something about what you all shared just hit me so hard - - all of those little things - - they're all just LOVE. Oh man, to think of a husband doing something sweet for his wife while he's getting treated for cancer, or a wife who irons all her husbands shirt so he doesn't have to worry about it, or a husband who keeps a list of things his wife wants and then over time gets all those things for her. Gah. I'm just dying over all that you said. Thanks so much for sharing. I'm adding to my list: tickling Danny's back before bed (he's such a sucker for this.)
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