I’m sitting at my computer writing this post and eating a delicious hot meal. I have a blanket wrapped around me and a little heater on at my feet. We’re having apple crisp for dessert.
Across the street from us is where they are bringing many of the evacuees from Far Rockaway (due to Hurricane Sandy). As I sit here, I can look out my window and see the cots – row after row – where people are laying down. They have been there over a week now. There are two semi trucks permanently affixed on the street where they are keeping supplies. Yesterday they had the street blocked off as they said they were bringing in showers for the residents. There is another evacuee shelter nearby at a high school a few blocks away and it broke out with a stomach virus today. 🙁
It’s one thing to see this all on the news. It’s another to see it in the neighborhoods that we know and love…and to see it from our living room window. It’s been difficult to feel normal when so many people around us are without. Luckily, it was not a big deal to cancel our IVF a few days after the hurricane due to gas/power/subways & a pharmacy shortage. It can easily wait another month. I wish others had that kind of flexibility with their lives right now.
My thoughts about blog posts have been strained. I’ve felt a little paralyzed – not sure what to write. I feel a desire to say something inspiring – to be a good influence to those in need, cause I live for the opportunity to do that. But at the same time, I am seeking inspiration myself. I am working to keep myself well so that I can continue to offer my best to others.
-I’m diligently walking and running daily (it’s amazing. I can’t recommend it enough. This has changed my life more than once in times of need.)
-I’m listening to talks, meditations and music to refuel me. Right at this moments, it’s Les Miserables.
-I’m letting my husband’s words soak into me: “I believe in you. I couldn’t do what you do. You have talents that I don’t have. I love you for all that you do.”
I know my weight is so little right now. So very little. But it never ceases to amaze me how even the smallest burden we carry can interrupt our ability to be our best. So tonight, just as I recommend to all of you, I will pursue virtues. I will pursue love and gratitude (!) for my dear husband (that man, oh my goodness). Gratitude for all of you who have so thoughtfully written us so much heartfelt kindness this last year and given me confidence in pouring my heart out to you. Love for all the New Yorkers (& beyond) who need our efforts, thoughts and prayers at this time. Patience with myself as I get myself back on track.
Thanks for all you do for us,
P.S. Does it take a lot out of you emotionally to write? I’m so curious how it is for other people. At times, I prepare a post rather quickly. Other times I hit some bumps and start over. I mean – LOVE…can you believe I am trying to tackle something as complicated as a blog about love? 🙂 haha. It’s a lot to handle. And I’m trying to do it justice 🙂 Luckily, the reward of doing this is so great that I must continue.
(image source via kate spade)