My dear Danny,
Darling, so much for retiring to bed early! I am too excited that I cannot sleep. I am laying here in love, trying to visualize you in person, and going over and over in my mind the moment we will meet. I am so very much in love. Know that I am all yours! I really can't even think of a reason why I wouldn't want you. Really. Can't think of one. The things we have already talked about are what I truly care about the most...and you have it all. All the other little details are so very insignificant to me. I mean that.
I love you. I can't wait to see the man that houses such a beautiful soul.
Oh...I'm sorry it didn't work as well for you as it did for me. Admittedly I still didn't fall asleep until about 12:40 am (way too giddy and in love). But, by then my 20 hrs being awake at that time overruled that excitement eventually, and I finally slept through the night until at least 6:00. Again, you've stolen my words and thoughts. I've only been putting any disclaimers of "if it doesn't work" because it seems like at least some caution should be expressed.....but I'm with you. There is nothing that could stop me from loving you the way I do now. Especially because weaknesses and flaws mean so much less when one approaches life the way you do!
Wow, so I just went through last night's emails again, smiling radiantly, and just thought....WOW! I mean, if that isn't one of the best exchanges I could ever imagine....I mean...HOLY MOLY!!! I really don't have words. So grateful, so full of hope and love. Thank you, Mara, for every ounce of the woman you are.
I am truly happy. Thank you, Mara. Yet another day closer to your embrace :)
With great admiration,
I am twinkling all over. Haha. Thx for your oh-so-good email. I will respond more when I can. For now I am sending you a photo ...I just got my hair done [note to readers: This was actually the first picture I sent to Danny - to shy to show him a photo of my face so he got one of my hair.] Right now I am in a dressing room quickly trying on some clothes as I'm trying to figure out what to wear when I meet you. I know I am so vain. But only sometimes. :)
Today flew by (yeah...one more down!!!).
And then shopping.....well, I did get a few things that I'd had my eye on for some time now. I think I'm looking quite sexy :) Hopefully you'll like it. Btw, if we are to go to Wicked, how should I plan on dressing? Do nice jeans with a tie and vest/jacket count? Or should I be even more dressed up? What kind of outfit will you be wearing? I certainly hope I can at least look passable next to you.
Mara, I know I already said it yesterday...but I absolutely LOVED your email last night. I've read it so many times - last night, this morning, this afternoon, tonight - each time feeling my heart just leap for joy. You make PERFECT sense! I feel like I understand every word you say. Mara, we are lucky, and blessed. Every night since meeting you I have knelt in pure gratitude for this life changing and life giving union. Any worries or fears or doubts about my future just wash away, every part of my life is rejuvenated and imbued with strength. I'm nicer to my coworkers, my lessons at church are more heartfelt, I am more in tune with the spirit of God (I have learned some amazing things over the last few weeks) I am more thoughtful and kind to those around me - all while being distracted by thoughts of you nearly every moment of the day!
Oh...and marriage....to YOU!!! I couldn't possibly hope for anything better! Thank you for not feeling like you shouldn't say something like that just because we haven't even "met" yet. And yes...I know that sounds ridiculous, cause who says stuff like that? Well...YOU DO! And I love you for it! It's not like I haven't been thinking about it since the moment I began to read your kind sweet words and understand your amazing heart and soul. Thank you for being more open than I ever could have imagined anyone being with me. I can't tell you how happy I am that I noticed only a few days before meeting you that I had no filter myself and that other people weren't used to that. It makes me appreciate it all the more that you don't have one either. Here we are, two people willing to bear our hearts and souls to each other, and in each others words find solace, hope, courage, home.
And Mara, love, thank you for reassuring me that your love is strong, and real, and will continue no matter what. I promise you I will not doubt that. I couldn't. I have been enveloped in it from the start. But yes, your words still mean so much to me because I keep asking myself "can this be REAL....I mean come on! This is impossible, isn't it?" So thank you for making it undeniably clear. I am just in heaven thinking about how lucky I am, and just how much I am dying to be with you, and to love you as you have loved me.
I have more to write...but I'm afraid that if I begin the next part I will be up way too late trying to get it all out right. So please be patient and know that I am searching for the right words to express the feelings of my heart towards you.
Goodnight darling...please don't stay up too late on my account (though admittedly I will be thrilled to hear from you the moment I wake).
See here for the full 'Love Story' collection of emails...starting from Day 1 of Danny & Mara. :)
P.S. For anyone single & dating - let me suggest a tip - - - if you have to constantly wonder what the other person is thinking & if they keep you wondering for a long period of time, consider this a red flag! A little coaxing is ok & you can always see what unfolds, but if this person's love or care for you remains a complete mystery, consider finding someone who is willing to be open & loving in a relationship - - trust me.............it's so much nicer :) Any stories about how your bf/gf or spouse lets you know they love you?
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