(This is my response to Danny's last love note....)
Oh my gosh.
I am just beaming over here and so happy....
I missed you like crazy tonight. Strange that I could miss you and I've never met you. But I do. A friend stopped by to say hello so I couldn't email you. And the whole time I could barely concentrate on the conversation cause I just wanted to get to this computer... haha.
AND, this is just a fun coincidence, but earlier tonight I also spoke to my parents, too!!! They are absolutely giddy over this. Yes, they know I'm in love with you. And they are so grateful that they got to see me recently and see (in person) how happy I have been. They are so excited for us to meet. I think their hearts are pounding, too. They are just so happy to see me happy, too, after all I've been through.
You know, something so beautiful is happening to me. I am normally full of so many butterflies that I think I might just die before I even get the chance to say hello to you! But at this moment, I just feel sooooo much peace. I don't have one ounce of worry about the outcome. Not at all. I just feel like all will be well! And I just feel honored that I get to meet someone that has meant SO much to me, in such a short time. I could not feel more more happy, more content, more grateful and more at peace. This entire experience has been such a gift. I actually just said a quick prayer of thanks... for this is truly a miracle to be free of all worry.
And yes, I cannot believe that you have become my sweetheart in only 3 wks! (yes, I want to call you sweetheart!!!) What a miracle. This is the kind of love that people dream about and write love stories and poems about. hahha. Yet I think many never feel this. You know, I always dreamed of being with a good, good man. So just even knowing you has been a dream come true. These 3 wks have changed my life...you truly are someone that I would just be so incredibly proud & & honored & happy to be with!!!!!!
Danny, I love you beyond what I can even express. I love you for all that you are. I love you for kicking some butt this last year and being such an amazing man despite all that you have been faced with. I love you for the forgiveness that you have for your ex-wife. I love you for all that you want for your life! I love you for knowing who you are and for knowing how to be truly happy (the way God provides for us to be, if we choose to be), I love you for being so giving of yourself and for accepting me and recognizing all the good in me and loving me for so many good reasons. (I find that so many people look for all the wrong things to make them happy!! Looks, money, success. I love it that we love each other for who we are and not all of those things. )
In a way, meeting you will not at all feel like the first time. Even though it's you that is coming, it feels as though I have family coming to town or something...because you already are such a dear loved one to me. I feel so close to you and feel so much warmth and love for you and from you that it will feel so comfortable and cozy to have you here. AND, it's chilly in NY today!! I wonder what the weather will be like this weekend. All day I've been thinking how much I want to just cuddle and get warm with you. :)
I simply cannot believe that tomorrow is Thursday. And then it will be Friday...and then I will meet you. This is all too exciting.
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!! I am thankful every single moment that you have been in my life.
I could just have a prayer in my heart all day because of the gratitude I feel.
Sending you so much love....
Good bye, sweetheart, for now!!!
Dear Readers, in my early twenties, before I had self-worth...I remember being with boyfriends that I knew were not meant for me. I never felt fully comfortable deep in my soul. I really believe that the deepest parts of us know if we should be with someone or not!!! Please, do not ignore those feelings.
For me, here's one way that made it harder and harder to ignore those feelings..... telling my parents or friends about who I was dating. It was like I could get away with being in denial myself, but I couldn't fake it so well with them.
TIP: If you feel uneasy or embarrassed in your gut while talking about your relationship or boyfriend/girlfriend to your friends or family or people who care about you - - consider this a huge red flag.
Thankfully, that uncomfortable feeling in my gut helped me to get out of some situations that I know ultimately would not have been good for me.
How about you? Do you (did you) notice yourself ever feeling uncomfortable telling other people about a relationship? Or the opposite?
Lots of love to you all for the weekend.
We're getting very excited about our very first ever on-line class on Tuesday!
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