I was still in New York holding up, working late nights, stuck in traffic, running our business, HARVEY FAIRCLOTH.....
And Danny was still in Boston, working as an Accountant at a venture capital firm, eating bachelor meals of grilled cheese & breakfast burritos, playing his heart out on the guitar while thinking of me, which made me the luckiest woman on earth.....
AND...we were writing each other like crazy. AND WE WERE IN LOVE. :)
I am dying to just be able to picture you. I can't wait to see you, your home, where you sleep, where you eat, your neighborhood, the Pier, etc. It will just be cool to see it all. Yes, I've seen about 3 tiny/abstract pictures of you on facebook. hahaha. But I'll love to just see the real you. Maybe I'll get brave and start sending you some pictures from my iphone. We'll see. Once again, THANK YOU for being willing to meet me. Are you nervous?? I will try so very hard not to be. We are just "friends" I tell myself. We'll just be casual, no pressure...Nope - none at all!! haha! Oh my, I'll have to tell myself that over and over and OVER. I can be SHY sometimes, Danny.... not always. But sometimes. I hope I don't feel that way when I meet you and that I'll just feel as natural and at ease as I do now.
And, this is so strange to do. But I am sending you some love from NY. The kind of love that I feel for someone I admire, someone that makes me melt, someone that tugs at my heart for all that you stand for and all that you desire to be, and someone that appreciates the parts of me that I love most about myself.
Smile a bunch today, as I will do.
From a woman in New York who adores you,
That is a love I will gladly receive and give in kind. Consider that smile planted...firmly :)
In fact, I don't know how am I supposed to wipe the gigantic smile off my face when I read these emails. My boss has an office across from me, and I keep on thinking, if he looks over right now, he's going to be wondering what on earth I'm working on that I could be that happy about. Currently thinking to self "must have neutral face, must have neutral face...MAINTAIN DISINTERESTED LOOK!" It's impossible! Just too happy :)
So I have to set goals for what I know I should be able to finish before the end of each day to make sure I'm not letting myself get too carried away in thoughts. Aahhh, but those thoughts are just so ever-present it is difficult, and I welcome them, wouldn't dream of pushing them away.
Btw, sorry about the dearth of pictures on my facebook account...I guess you have to have more of an imagination than I do. I just don't have many yet that are just of me (or when I'm not a few years younger).
And thank YOU for being willing to meet ME. I still get a kick out of the email you sent me giving your schedule with the explicit command "sooner the better, just being blunt :)". My sentiments exactly.
Well, I assure you, you're not the only one who is excited....and nervous. You know, to be honest, I kind of like that there is a distance now, not because I want it to be there mind you, it would be nice to be see you and be able to "move forward" starting now. It's just that, I've never had anything remotely like this happen before, never had such "magic" before even meeting. In some ways I know I'm not going to be nervous because I already know I'm going to love you no matter what, simply because of who you are and the way you live your life. I would consider anyone like you the dearest of friends (unfortunately for me I'm not sure how many others there are that are like you). So if it makes sense at all, I'm both nervous (because in some ways expectations are high), and yet totally relaxed because I know that no matter what happens, all will be well.
Okay, I really must get some work done today, and this smile does have to go into hiding for at least an hour so as to not draw suspicions :)
Ok, I wasn't going respond cause I don't want to distract you.... But I can't help myself. You are making me just laugh so hard. I can't stop.
And yes, I barely had any photos without my ex-husband, either. I just recently set up a facebook account and have photos on there that I maybe wouldn't put up otherwise, but they are all I have. However, can't wait to have a whole new set of memories and photos and keepsakes one day with a new husband!!
And yes, I think no matter what, I will love you, too, as a person. How could I not??? So, no matter what, this will be a good union of some kind. So breathe, breathe. No butterflies. NO BUTTERFLIES! :) :) We can do this. We can do anything, remember?? Hahaha.
By the way, you’re in trouble….
I am getting an exceptional amount of attention from guys on the street today. And it's cause I am beaming and happy because of YOU . You might want to call this guy and tell him you have first dibs. :)
Mara - -
haha, that's great. Well, I'm certainly not surprised. Matching your beauty with the glow I am feeling myself and can only hope/imagine you are feeling, too....well there is nothing more attractive.
I think you need to start taking plays from my book - MAINTAIN DISINTERESTED LOOK!
It is impossible though isn't it, and so instead I just succumb and let it envelop me... :)